standing in line, I think you're pretty

I dont know where to begin. I never thought this day would come. We were all prepared but not so soon. It was too soon. Too soon. Pretending I'm strong is not okay.

Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise. Like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. The belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision, to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. The covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. The celebration, of the chance for two will always be stronger than one. Like a team, braced against the tempest’s of the world. And love... will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is mere formality.. only an announcement to the world for feelings long held. Promises made long ago -- in the sacred space of our hearts.

"Douglas Adams once wrote: 'He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream, and he sometimes wondered whose it was, and whether they were enjoying it."

At times, I wondered why I stopped dreaming about you. For the past 4 years, it's always have been you. It just stopped. Reading an email from the past just reminded me of you. I wonder where you are, how are you doing? " I am writing this because I had a wonderful dream about him. I dreamt that I heard him lafaz nikah. I dreamt that I cried when he said my name. I dreamt that I was late to my own solemnization that he had to call and pick me up to make sure I am not late to my own wedding. I dreamt that I forgot to put on my make up and ibu was there to make me feel pretty. I dreamt that I forgot to call my friends to come to my wedding" They say not to tell anyone about your dream or it wont come true but this whole crazy fairytale of mine happened 2 years ago. Part of me is smiling reading an email from the old. Part of me is just sad that I had to play Yiruma's Kiss the rain over and over again. :(

satu. I bought new purse. Finally got rid of the old one I bought in Phuket. Its pretty. But only realize there's so little compartments. dua. I'm trying to save up to buy this lists I made but....... tiga. While everyone is complaining about traffic to work. At times I wished I'm working somewhere a little further from home tapi......saya suka rumah dekat dengan office. empat. Everyday I thought about not having rice, konon nak diet tapi...... lima. I miss my crazy Subang friends dearly. We just made a weekly/monthly trip for massage! tapi.... we only get to see each other on weekends! enam. Lately I fail at baking. Last week I made red velvet. It tastes amazing. Soft. RED. but too moist it broke into half when I was putting it on Lazy Susan so I couldn't make it two layers. Ate it, ice cream style. tujuh. I wished I wasn't the only chambee in my office. But I like the fact everyone's there is teaching me everything. Banking, Litigation, Conveyencing. lapan. I...

I know. I missed two months of updates. I wrote a whole long entry but saved it in my MWord. Now I'm not sure where exactly I saved it. So how's work everyone? Mine has been okay. It always started off like "No-wai-I'm doing litigation. I'm just going to relax and enjoy chambering and probably doing conveyancing cause I think it was one thing I could understand. Guess what I'm stuck with now. Cik Litigation. Litigation is fun cause you read a lot, do research a lot. and well, read a lot. The thing with litigation is, there's SO MANY THINGS to get done with! Okay. Am not going to rant about work cause I'm actually enjoying it. Moral of the story is, don't plan the future. Things like, as much I want to avoid litigation, I end up doing it.... As much I want to marry a Korean, I should not plan it. I'll just go with the flow. As much as I'm planning a 2012 Korean trip. I might be going this May? No. Not planning anything. *whistles*

A conversation with ayah, ibu, uncle and auntie. "Ayah, once I'm done with chambering I'd like to continue with something else. Legal Secretary would be great. hehe. " O.O "I've been going to court 4 times for the past 2 weeks and there's nothing special anymore. Everyone's wearing the same clothes, carrying the same bag and doing the same thing." Uncle : "NO! You have to be a lawyer. We have 2 doctors, 3 engineers and endless amounts of teachers in our family. We NEED A LAWYER" T.T Ok.