standing in line, I think you're pretty

ive been wanting to write. but seems like all my entries are depressing. i dont feel like writing at all when in two three weeks time I might decided to write another entry and stopped halfway cause I saw the old entries. haha. ok. I found awesome mustache iphone app that I like now. become vain suddenly all because of this app. here's some handsome pics of me and my friends. :p Celebrated Arlina's. Got a day off that day cause was having a terrible sorethroat. I needed that break. Oneday . but it was worth it. Did facial. went for a good lunch. stared at the ceiling. dinner out with friends. after two months being all stressed out and depressed. all I needed was a day off away from everything at home, away from work, away from these complicated things. but well, we cant run away forever right? Alhamdulillah Im feeling better now. I think I can cope with my work, and balanced it with everything now.

Ya Allah. Jangan duga aku sebegini.

Dear you, I miss you so much it hurts. Im not sure whether at this moment I should trust my brain more than my heart. My heart says you know you love that person when you show your lowest point to them and he would be there answering to each and every single complaints and ends it with "so feel much better?" and still accepts your weakness. Youd say cheesy things like "ill pray for your safety in my prayers" But at times like this my mind says something else. Maybe he's not the one. Maybe this is not the time. Maybe Allah has better plans. Maybe its time to rest this heart. ---- okbye.

there's this one article i like to read in iluvislam. everyday without fail. its actually the same article. so i screencapture it and read it everymorning or everynight before I go to bed. because it reminds me of the smallest thing in life that makes me feel grateful of what I have. Every single time I read it. I cry. I dont know why but I cry. so yes. am not going to share it because I find it personal. hehe. go ahead and read the entries there , who knows you might find one that makes you cry everysingletime you read it too?

the lowest point. when you feel you're not good enough for your family. when you feel that you disappointed your boss with your bad bad research and submission. when you feel that there's no future between you and him. when you feel that that people dont deserve to have what they have. when you feel that you still have a long way to go in this career. when you just feel like giving up everything. rasa macam iman dah hilang. rasa macam fikiran dah ambil hati ini. and whats left is between you and God.

orang tanya kenapa sedih? orang tanya, cerita lah? orang kata tak apa. nangis lah. orang kata 'you know i'm just a phone call away'. saya diam. sebab I am blessed with wonderful friends around. but how about 'biarlah rahsia' for now.

at time like this saya bersyukur dengan apa yang saya ada. hati yang tak pernah dilukai. tetapi sedih. perasaan itu tidak pernah wujud lagi. mungkin pernah , tiada siapa yang tahu. awak patut bersyukur sebab awak berpeluang merasai perasaan itu. so jangan datang dekat saya sedih macam nak bunuh diri sebab lelaki tu tinggalkan awak. tolonglah jangan jadi bodoh boleh tak? hish

That moment when your dad takes your ipad and starts browsing your facebook cause he has no idea what facebook is. that moment when he starts browsing your profile. photos. friendslist. his siblings (my uncles and aunties) then asks "eh? cik Ah pergi Timor Leste" that -____- moment when you realize your dad is not actually checking 'current' scores of Abu Dhabi PGA Open and browsing your facebook instead. then that moment when he says "habislah, kalau dah login facebook tak boleh log out dah" that lagi -_____- moment. yes my friends. my dad only goes online to check current scores. which he's really good at too. aiyoyoyo.

at times, things are better left unsaid. or so keeping it to yourself. فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا [94:5] Surely with hardship there is ease. إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا [94:6] With hardship there is ease. kalaulah hati boleh rasa kebas .

dan kadang kala aku terlupa. cuma merintih dan merayu dalam kesedihan. tetapi tidak pernah melakukannya dalam kegembiraan. sering kali aku terlupa. :((

hep farah! jangan jadi malas! =D

bodohnya kau melayan perasaan bodoh ni! kereta lalu pun boleh naik jadi gila! haih!

I actually have my "2011 in summary" saved as draft. currently still lazy to upload the rest. will publish it when I feel like it. Anyways, hari ni saya macam nak cerita pasal novel. Yes, novel Melayu yalls. Siapa yang kenal wa rapat memang diaorang tahu yang saya ni kaki novel. English - Melayu. Lagi jiwang. Lagi tangkap leleh lagi layan. Ish, kalau baca sorang-sorang dalam bilik malam-malam bukak lampu tidur samar-samar. Kena pulak novel yang "kahwin-laki curang-bini setia menanti-laki menyesal kejar kejar kuch kuch hota hai bini balik" yang tu memang lagi tangkap leleh. Besok pagi bangun tido mata bengkak macam orang putus cinta. So my brother dari hari tu, rasa nya awal tahun lagi dah bebel cuba baca buku girlpren bestfriend dia tulis buku ni. Alahai, lemahnya. Dengar tajuk je pun tak selera. Kalau cerita Resident Evil ke, yang ada mayat-mayat ni semua tak layan, nak suruh layan Zombijaya. Tu mimpi ngeri namanya. Kalau takde kisah cinta ke, romantik ke, harapa...