standing in line, I think you're pretty

Dear you, I miss you so much it hurts. Im not sure whether at this moment I should trust my brain more than my heart. My heart says you know you love that person when you show your lowest point to them and he would be there answering to each and every single complaints and ends it with "so feel much better?" and still accepts your weakness. Youd say cheesy things like "ill pray for your safety in my prayers" But at times like this my mind says something else. Maybe he's not the one. Maybe this is not the time. Maybe Allah has better plans. Maybe its time to rest this heart. ---- okbye.

there's this one article i like to read in iluvislam. everyday without fail. its actually the same article. so i screencapture it and read it everymorning or everynight before I go to bed. because it reminds me of the smallest thing in life that makes me feel grateful of what I have. Every single time I read it. I cry. I dont know why but I cry. so yes. am not going to share it because I find it personal. hehe. go ahead and read the entries there , who knows you might find one that makes you cry everysingletime you read it too?

the lowest point. when you feel you're not good enough for your family. when you feel that you disappointed your boss with your bad bad research and submission. when you feel that there's no future between you and him. when you feel that that people dont deserve to have what they have. when you feel that you still have a long way to go in this career. when you just feel like giving up everything. rasa macam iman dah hilang. rasa macam fikiran dah ambil hati ini. and whats left is between you and God.

orang tanya kenapa sedih? orang tanya, cerita lah? orang kata tak apa. nangis lah. orang kata 'you know i'm just a phone call away'. saya diam. sebab I am blessed with wonderful friends around. but how about 'biarlah rahsia' for now.

at time like this saya bersyukur dengan apa yang saya ada. hati yang tak pernah dilukai. tetapi sedih. perasaan itu tidak pernah wujud lagi. mungkin pernah , tiada siapa yang tahu. awak patut bersyukur sebab awak berpeluang merasai perasaan itu. so jangan datang dekat saya sedih macam nak bunuh diri sebab lelaki tu tinggalkan awak. tolonglah jangan jadi bodoh boleh tak? hish